With chasing a determined 1 year old, I never officially announced it as a blog post, and definitely didn't post nearly as much as I did during my pregnancy with AnaLynn but we are expecting our second little lady in just a few weeks! Our emotions are everywhere!
Excitement is an understatement! We are so excited AnaLynn will have a little sister, sure we expect fights and some spurts of jealousy but overall we are hopeful for lifelong friendship.
Nervous-ness is definitely another emotion we are experiencing, well I am at least. With AnaLynn I couldn't wait to just have her already, to hold her in my arms instead of the womb, but this time, I just want to keep her inside for as long as I can, since the moment we got the '2 pink lines' I've had constant flashbacks to the moments with AnaLynn in the hospital when she was first born. I'm absolutely terrified the same complications we experienced 16 short months ago with happen again.
I recently joined a bible study for moms of littles, and it has definitely been wonderful for me. It helps me refocus and reminds me God is in charge of it all. I know only God can control these things and I need to give up my fears and just pray, but sometimes it isn't always that easy for me. Knowing I have a group of friends, other moms, who can relate to my struggles and are there to listen without judgement is the greatest blessing in my life.
I'm a "planner." I make lists for everything and constantly have to know the exact schedule, what will happen and when, and most importantly I like knowing everything with be okay.
I'm sure if our experience with AnaLynn's birth was different I'd be just as eager as I was with AnaLynn but for now, the longer I feel these kicks, and know she is healthy and breathing, the more relieved I feel.
